Why do you build me up?

I have made a decision.

This year, there shall be daffodils for as long as I can have them.

There shall be smelly candles.

There shall be fairy lights. And Toilet Duck.

And Salted Caramel Ice Cream.

And Blue Hair... .I will however try to master the blue fingers; blue forehead, and blue nose where I touched my nose after the blueness.

I shall smile constantly, and laugh hysterically at my own jokes (My head tells me them when no one is listening).

And I shall pull my tap shoes out again, and dance once more.

All for my own pleasure.