Getting there

Sorry for the lack of blipping in the last two weeks - a combination of just not finding the time (I swear babies operate in a parallel timezone making what should be simple tasks last for hours!), being too tired (actually make that exhausted) and not having the brains to write!

The fella went back to work last week - the hardest bit of that I found was having less support in the early hours of the morning as he really needed his sleep to be able to function where as I was getting more late morning. OBD decided to stay awake feeding constantly from 11-2am which not only left me tired but feeling like a milk machine. I have to confess on Tuesday I felt very low just thinking how reliant OBD is on me and how much I just needed sleep!! Don't get me wrong I enjoy breastfeeding and am grateful that it's working for both of us but it doesn't leave a great deal of room for downtime. Tuesday's mood wasn't helped by the fact that the fella was ill and slept for about 16hours straight - I was so jealous! Not of the illness but of the fact he could and was sleeping!!

But that evening a minor miracle happened -OBD went to sleep at midnight then woke for quick feeds at 3 and 6. That schedule I can deal with. Same thing happened last night so am much much more refreshed and so my mood is on a totally different level. Amazing what a bit of sleep can do.

She's just having a bit of a snooze while I finally read a magazine LadyPride bought me 4 weeks ago and have my breakfast and a cuppa. And I'm showered and dressed before 11 - a new record!!

I need to remember there will be ups and downs but the ups more than make up for the downs. I still can't quite believe we have a daughter and that I'm a mum. But I love our new pace of life and don't miss work for one minute. We went out for dinner with some work colleagues on Monday and whilst it was great to see them, I don't miss it! And I know how lucky I am to get to spend this time with OBD - the fella hates the time he's away from us and I'm sure he'd be a house husband in a shot (maybe in the future!)

So I can't promise to blip everyday but I'll try.

O and I must mention how flipping amazing my mum is - as I'm a bit limited in what I can do due to the c section and to support me she's been over 3 times a week. It's great to have help with the housework - I've never been this on top of the washing and things are even getting ironed (by mum of course) - but just having some company whilst I get used to things is brilliant. Mum I love you more than ever x