Oh Crazily Difficult

A sad, hard day.

Yesterday, in the later afternoon, I saw Lizzie and Tess. I got myself into a stew because of some news we were discussing that brought up some negative thought patterns from the past. I was feeling so trapped by it all when the verse of the day came up on the Christian radio station I was listening to.

'So if the Son sets you free, you are truly free.' John 8:36.

It was just so apt. Praise God. That did help, but I was glad to also be able to talk about it lots with Bibs when I saw her this afternoon. I wouldn't say I am totally over it but I feel massively better about it than I did.

We did our Colossians bible study which was also helpful thinking some more about being a new creation and living our lives in love and peace, forgiving each other in response to the wonderful gift God has offered of eternal life with him when we don't deserve it.

I was glad to be able to stay around all afternoon. I felt quite sad and stressed. Largely because I knew or suspected that many around me were suffering.

I think I also was worrying that I was a fraud and that I was no more stressed/troubled than anyone else... Especially as when we went and sat in the garden and cut some stuff out that Bibs needed, I was fairly OK.

I was quite sad and lonely once I got home. I ended up doing some craft and watching some comedy. I feel a bit bad as I fear that makes me well.