Cold Turkey

God today was depressing! The weather was revolting and everything just looked so grey.

I hate this time of year. I get Christmas withdrawl issues. I'm a huge fan of the festive season and I find myself scanning for what's left like an addict!! Ooh look that house have still got their tree up! The shops still have their window displays! They're still showing Christmas films on TV! etc etc But it's no use. I know its over. Everything just looks so dull when it's de-Christmassed.

Audrey was back at nursery today. As I arrived, the reception was full of the sound of wailing children. It was horrible. The nursery nurses said that after two weeks, many are unsettled for a little while. Audrey was clingy to start with but they brought her round with the promise of some colouring.

I went home to work. Angus was sleeping off his shift and when he woke up we had lunch together in front of an episode of Breaking Bad. We remarked how strange it felt without Audrey in the house. Not good strange either.

Had a late meeting in town with a new client at the Midland Hotel. Felt myself anxiously watching the clock. When Audrey's at nursery, I can only last so long before I start to feel panicky and want to go and get her. Generally once 4pm comes. 4pm came and went on the big clock in the lobby; my meeting continued. 4.30pm came and went. I did all the classic "let's wind this up now moves" like shutting my notebook and shuffling with my bag. Finally he let me go.

I literally sprinted to a packed, miserable tram (see pic) . I didn't need to worry though. Audrey had had a good day. They said they were amazed how much her speech had come on in the break which made me feel quite proud, as if I should take the credit somehow.

Flopping in front of the TV tonight. Am going to regret it but am considering Celebrity Big Brother. I do enjoy a bit of trash telly on a winter night!