emptiness,light and clarity....

Today's an exciting day for many as Christmas is upon us.....

I like this time of the year because lovers get reunited,families come together ,people head off to holiday destinations,many plans are made and its a season of merry and fellowship

Well this year unfortunately I won't get any of that-i guess life rolls out a season that you can't help but accept....life is complicated right now and I guess all that Christmas brings can't help me right now-so iv opted to get some time to have time to seek God and to deprive myself from all those things-sometimes its hard to hear the voice that's just next to me because of all the noise

I'm going to a solitude retreat camp, time to just be with my God to kind of try and deal with a lot of who I was, am and intend to be-so many new things come with 2014 ,and I just want to be in the right place with God,myself and the world-in as much as I'm excited,I'm also wary to focus on being found in the right state when God does His purpose in my life for 2014

Iv taken a lot of walks today to just think things through-and my blip picture is a reflection of emptiness,light and clarity-best way to make sense of what today has been like.

Lots of things haven't been the same-but God sometimes speaks and all we hear is our negative minds,the devil's whispers,people's opinions,worldly standards.....nice to hear the right voice-God's voice

Funny how many people think I'm losing my mind or I'm depressed-this is by far one of the wierdest things iv ever done-but its a choice that no man can understand. Emptiness is always portrayed as something bad,but I believe and am enjoying it because in silence ,u can hear the voices that scream for our attention

Its been an awesome day,quiet just the way I like-a lot (too much reflection)-when u speak less you think more...so I'm looking forward to resting my mind (its overworked)

I love nature,miss lying in the park and walking through trees-so this retreat is my christmas

My sister is very very sick-am nervous I may get devastating news....but iv had some prayer time and God is in control....its wierd to feel u are begging God to lift my sister from the pain-im trusting God for her healing

Its so nice to write my blip walkin on the quiet road and marvelling at the lights and quietness....let me close this chapter and let Christmas pass because it doesn't mean that much

Everyday has its own twists...today comes to a close,the bush site awaits...