Dark

Early start this morning; woke at 4.20am. Had breakfast and lay on the sofa falling in and out of sleep until I had to drag myself off it at 12pm. It was such an effort.

An afternoon session with R. Got asked to take her through my week, routine, events etc. Afterwards she said the sound of my life makes her feel sad. Thanks for that, I know my life is shit but I don’t need to hear something like that.

Afterwards, since I was already out I thought I'd I take a walk along the beach, but didn't last long. I cried lots and wished I could scream out loud.

I just want to be happy……..