Flat

......out in Kobi's case

........just flat in mine :-(

Woke up, tears came pretty much straight away.......and so it continued, put some laundry on, pegged it out, cried cos it was just my stuff. Post came, conifrmations of bank changes all addressed just to me, more tears. A wedding "save the date" card....to me.

Cried all the way through a phone call to Sky TV Bereavement Team, had to change the account details and the package we had, way too expensive now:-/ The lady was lovely, which just made me worse.

Just feels like I have an eraser and I am gradually rubbing him out :-((((

Eventually pulled myself together about 2.30 as I had made arrangments to go to Sis's for my tea.......got washed and changed, made me feel a bit better, my face was so blotchy and puffy :-/

Not sure I was good company really, but managed to hold myself together.......sis made a lovely lamb rogan josh. We just sat outside chatting.

Got home around 8.30, brought the laundry in, got changed, stayed away from my ipad and phone and decided to watch the first two episodes of Keeping Faith.....first thing Ive watched properly for ages. It wasnt until I was getting ready to go up to bed that I realised I had not done my blip.....was too tired, hence this,back blip.

Really hope tomorrow is a better day :-(