Monday

Went to work today. For selfish reasons. I wanted a distraction, normality. I also couldn't bear to see Grandma again like she was yesterday. I phoned Mum at lunch time after a few text in the morning.
Grandma has deteriorated today, she's not opening her eyes, slightly nodding if she wants water and barely opening her mouth.
Phoned Mum tonight and again this afternoon  no change.

Tonight I have a friend coming for coffee, again a welcome distraction. I know it is selfish and I shouldn't be thinking of myself.
I don't like myself for it either.