Sunday

Another awful photo.

A day in the nursing home.
An upsetting day.
Grandma was awake more today but not for any longer for a few minutes each time. She would wake, and ask for water. She has started to gag at the water with the thickening agent in it, so she is back to plain water. I suggested some flavoured water, and she nodded her head. I ran out to the shops and bought her a few different flavours. She was taking it from a teaspoon and even that little amount she was choking and coughing. So distressing to watch. We were putting her bed up and down to try and get a comfortable position.

They have moved her bed into the middle of the room so its easier for the carers to handle her. She has had her nightie changed everyday and has been put on an air mattress. I'm really impressed with the care.
She kept asking 'where am I' as she didn't recognise the new view she has of her room. She also kept saying , 'what on earth is wrong with me', and was on the verge of tears several times.

Mum and I left around 6pm and we both were in tears saying goodbye to her.

Today I was really aware that everybody deals with these situations differently. What Mum wanted /needed, I wanted/needed the opposite.