Low Tide

A funny day today. I had a much needed lie-in after last night. I am always so tired! A thinks it might be a sort of apathy about life, the kind that saps your energy when you feel overwhelmed with decision making. I take medicine for my thyroid, so I think it's more likely to be that. I'm actually seeing the thyroid doc for the first time in over a year. I was supposed to have radioactive iodine treatment last year, but bailed at the last moment. I thought she said it looked like it had burned itself out, and we reduced my meds. But I wonder if it might be done struggling, and my tiredness is a result of it. I bought a blood glucose kit to check my blood sugar about a month ago. It sounds a bit silly but thyroid was an autoimmune disease and I wondered if I might have diabetes as that is one too. I'm happy to report that although I've had some high fasting blood tests, the rest of them seem to be within the normal range, so I would seem to be rather lucky in that respect. I suppose I was just groping for answers.

Anyways. I felt a bit out of sorts today. I feel a kind of pent up anger/frustration/disappointment that resulted in a few weepy moments and black mascara stripes down my face today ;-) Even though it wasn't a proper flood of tears, I felt a bit better after, so maybe I should just have a good cry and get it over with!

In the evening I headed out to meet some friends at a mixer party. It was nice and light, but cooler than yesterday, and after a quick bite in Wasabi, I decided to walk to Covent Garden to get my steps up.

The venue was quite nice, and I met a couple of nice people. Actually, when I first got there, I had those feelings of "this is it, this is what I'm reduced to" etc, particularly when being accosted by a guy I did not want to talk to last time who kept trying to strike up a conversation. But luckily I met a guy who was a bit younger than me who just seemed a bit more on my wavelength. We chatted in a group, and at one point he produced his phone, and said "right, let's do dog pictures"! And told me all about Lola the King Charles Spaniel whilst I showed him Little B's instagram page ;-)

I took the tube back as I knew I would make the slow train and said tiredness was setting in....