Colic Blues

Good parts of today:
- My giant cup of tea this morning
- Walking in the sunshine and nattering with my friend Laura for an hour while Audrey slept in her pram peacefully
- My husband coming home and giving me a hug

Bad parts of today:
- Audrey having colic most of the day and screaming in pain
- Crying while holding her as I literally had no idea how to help her
- Having a fight with my Mum on the phone as am so tired and over-sensitive (and paranoid that people think I'm inventing the colic as no-one except my husband and I ever witness it)

Today's picture is of a poorly Audrey slumped after exhausting herself screaming. She was so needy today and would only calm down (eventually) after being held for long periods of time. Which despite everything was slightly adorable. Like a little limpet.

We've taken her off the Colief (for colic) and just got her on the Infant Gaviscon (for reflux) that the doctor prescribed. Suspect today's distress is caused by the fact we've taken her off the Colief, which was working. She may need both. Need to give it a few days (of hell) and see before we reintroduce anything.

I just want a happy baby. I know all babies cry but this is unreal. And draining; mentally and psychologically. I'm broken. There should be 24 hour helplines for parents suffering with newborn colic. It's hell.

Disclaimer: I know I said I wouldn't write another depressing blip but I can't help it. It was that or not post one at all.