A bedroom window view.

The iron bars on our windows look quite pretty, will deter burglars but will also make it rather tricky to escape if we were unlucky enough to have a fire! Fingers crossed that scenario never arises!

I enjoyed most of my working day. I love the kids I work with, they are all so special and today my group of 16 Turkish children really made me proud with our preparations for their little show they will do next week.

I get so cross with myself however. I am much to sensitive to the vibes that come from other people. At the end of my afternoon session I needed to leave fairly promptly as my next student had asked me to arrive a little earlier. I sent the boy, who's house "school" was at, to get his mum. When she came, as I was still reading a child's work, I was not standing up ready to leave. The mum in question made a comment to the gist of " oh, I rushed here as I thought you needed to go....". My brain then interprets that as her implying that I was trying to leave early, which I wasn't, and that she was being tetchy with me. She then asked me if I would be giving two of the students a written test akin to a SAT test. As it hadn't been mentioned before and this is my last week, I hadn't organized it but again I felt bad vibes coming my way. I have now had that knotty feeling in my stomach for the last 2 hours, worrying that I have displeased her in some way. The reason this matters to me more than it might is that the group of 5 kids are the children of 3 of my friends. We were a group of friends before I became their teacher and now, at the end of the second year, I feel like the friendship aspect has taken the backseat and I am now merely their kids teacher. I am very sensitive to this kind of situation and it makes me feel quite sad.

Phew, offload completed. Hopefully I will start to feel a little better now that I've talked it through with my blip friends!