the weight of waiting

I keep hoping I will feel better tomorrow, then for a moment I do, and just as quick as it comes it leaves.
There are so many things on my mind right now, I don't think I can spit them all out at once. I have never been religious, I have been in and out of therapy, I don't do well with hobbies, but I am searching for something. Peace? Clarity?
I don't know. Maybe just easy answers to my problems. I'm hoping a daily entry will help.
At this point I just feel like I am waiting for something big to happen, like it's just on the horizon. But I don't know what it is, and I feel like it won't be something good.

Anyway, for now I'm just going to take pictures
and write.