Drop

struggling with continuing my teaching job two days a week and tackling my workload. Worried I am inextricably doomed to repeat the same mistakes from the summer and am marching myself to an even worse disaster that screws up this opportunity.

I love the job, it's great teaching experience and a fantastic counter-point to academia. but barely got time to sleep, never mind think and write. there's something odd and allusive about my inability to get going and into my work when other pressures loom, a real fear of putting myself first.