More family time

I slept well and was pleased to take delivery of the orders of service at 10am today. I'm really pleased with them. They're quite unique and out of the ordinary with a bright sunflower design covering the front and back. They're also excellent quality, which is only right.

I then went back to bed and read and dozed til 1pm. I'm not sure why, but I'm putting it down to grief.

I then delivered the orders of service to the funeral directors, did some shopping in Towcester for tomorrow evening's meal then wended my way over to the head shrink. I got rather anxious during my session about the thought of the funeral and all of the things that might (or might not happen) and how I might react and feel but I think by offloading I got rid of some of the anxieties and developed some coping strategies. I do think that by having a 'job' to do ie the poem I am more likely to keep it together than otherwise.

I then drove straight to PPP+H's (though H is currently in Istanbul (lucky girl) at a conference about internet security with particular reference to children). C, N and C were there too and we had a really good evening around the dinner table talking about B, giving N some funny stories and memories about B from the days before he was born and looking at old photos of her. It was good to talk and share and laugh. P drew a pretty henna design on my hand, the first henna tattoo I've ever had. I think B would have approved.

My clever younger brother, C, is staying with me for the night and, as he is usually on the other side of the world, my blip today is of him. We're both exhausted so have turned in but tomorrow we have the job of putting some photos of B onto a memory stick so we can project them onto a screen at the wake in the pub.