Day 117 - the dreaded appointment

ATOS is done, hoorayyy! Oh my goodness, God was SO good. I wasn't too nervous until about an hour before the appointment. Then I really was anxious but as we sat in the waiting room, having been there for quite a long time already, I was just thinking about how I didn't want to be a fraud and how good it was that I was free from the yoke of guilt now that I am a Christian. Just then Christine started writing a note saying pretty much exactly that for me as she said it had just popped into her head that she needed to. Anyway, it made me smile and feel like God really was with me. So that helped a bit.

Then eventually the assessor came to collect me. We went into the room and Christine started to take notes which prompted the woman to have to go out of the room to get some information on note taking. Anyway, while she was gone, Christine pointed out that in the room that was otherwise very sterile looking, on the desk, the assessor had a bible! So that was all very exciting and I think it relaxed me a bit.

The questions weren't too bad. I'm trying not to think about them now as I just feel guilty/fraudulent. She basically went through the booklet I had had to fill in originally and questioning me on that. The best one was 'so you said here that other people find you difficult, can you explain why?'. I hadn't a clue what I had been talking about and couldn't help but laugh (I hope it is acceptable to them to laugh...). She went on to question whether I could be aggressive which Christine found hilarious.

I had told Christine to ask what her background was. Turns out she was a physiotherapist. Not sure whether that is good or not.

Anyway, then we were allowed to leave except they had bolted the doors and nobody was there so it was all rather awkward!

Then I went to see Helen. We did a jigsaw but after an hour I just couldn't face it so stopped for ages. I did carry on after a while but really struggled.