Day 57

The day was one of fatigue and faintness. In the morning, I saw Lizzie and Anna. After that I went back to bed and slept for an hour or two before getting ready (and being late) to tutor Alex. I felt like a bit of a failure as a tutor and couldn't work out what was going on in the chain rule integration thing we were attempting to go through. I think I was a bit more help with other stuff though.

I went on to Boots to pick up my prescription. I felt a bit confused by how I had managed to sit up with little support whilst tutoring, given how weak I had previously been feeling. Maybe I just need to do things and then I will feel better...? Now I felt so exhausted though and, I think resultantly, very low. I was a little daunted by the fact I then had to be in a bible study meeting and babysitting.

I managed though. I had some good chats with people at dinner. I felt like I was annoying people or being rubbish in the meeting but I'm not that worried anymore. Babysitting was pretty tiring and when Katherine got back, we chatted but then I worried I had made her think badly of me. I refrained from seeking reassurance from her though.

This must be so boring to read. I feel all a bit harassed by it. It's fine, Laura. It doesn't need to be perfect.