Grey Tuesday

Yesterday was Blue Monday apparently the most depressing day of the year for us Brits. It's usually dark, cold and the last Monday before January pay day! I have to say however that I think my blue Monday is more like a grey Tuesday this week, yesterday I was fine and dandy, today I'm a bit lower on that scale.

I know I keep going on about the weather but this daily rain onslaught is pretty annoying. It's just as if we have a giant sponge above us that, even when the day starts bright and sunny is filling up during the day until is so full to capacity it has to burst and the result is the drowned rat look for us all. I've given up brushing my hair and have gone for the mad as a hatter curly hair look just so I'm not wasting time attached to those straighteners! And as for the daily umbrella search well that's nearly taken me over the edge a few times as I now have about ten umbrellas scattered from home to work with a guaranteed none of them being with me when the sponge drops it's load!

I think I'm like a sponge sometimes, the emotional and passionate side of me loves that sponge being full, I love being full of emotion, whether it's love, compassion or even passion and a little bit of fiery anger, I've realised it's a part of me that just refuses to be empty and now I just need to stop feeling I have to fight against it and just be myself. Is this my pinnacle of maturity approaching? Maybe it is but sometimes you just have to be who you are and not worry so much about fitting into someone else's empty sponge.

It's strange but I know I find it hard to be an empty sponge and when I meet those who choose to live like that I just feel a bit of pity cause being an empty dry sponge is surely not always a beautiful place to be? Pity sounds patronising I know but I'm not sure how else to describe it, I don't empathise because I just don't understand how someone can act in a uncaring way but then I need to understand it better so I can not fill my sponge with all their emotions as well and I expect that is the key to happiness and good relationships, love you're own sponge first!