Day 9

Ugh, I was too tired to write this on time but now I have woken up in the middle of the night and feel rubbish so thought I might as well get it done and out the way. I think the mess of my room and the fact I feel a mess is not helping my mood, nor the daunting task of crèche. What is the worst thing that could happen in crèche? I feel energy less and rubbish for a couple of hours. Two hours will soon be over...

I had a general feeling of lowness pretty much all day. I wanted to be with people - and I was. I saw Bibs for lunch and then Lizzie afterwards. I felt I was not very interesting and I think this made me feel bad and, in turn, lower.

I felt pretty energy-less, especially in the later afternoon. When I got home it took me quite a long time to be able to motivate me to leave the default position of bed to get myself some food, especially as I became excessively tired.

The massively loud wind and rain made me feel very gloomy. I'm sure my preoccupation with feeling a bit fat is not helping things, but I still keep eating lots of chocolate...

There were some bits of feeling OK, but this led to the usual guilt...