Eleven days early

A fairly chaotic day.
Mum's going to a friend's for Christmas and I won't see her again until some time in January, so we had an early Christmas dinner today. So there was lots of tidying, decorating, veg peeling and cooking of a vegetarian roast.

I even managed to get out of the house and squeeze in a windy walk on the beach.

The last few days have caught up with me and I found myself struggling with shaking arms, palpitations, a headache and a total lack of focus. The inability to function after a period of anxiety is always frustrating but when I really need to be on the ball it's completely unbearable. I decided I needed to take some propranolol to try to take the edge off things - and it worked. Maybe I was just kidding myself that I wasn't anxious and really I'd been anxious all day.

The meal and rest of the evening were fine and I think it went well.