The Cracks.....

......are beginning to show.

The anxiety and chest pains have been so apparent today I have struggled. I am beginning to think I shouldn't go through with counselling. Is it going to make me feel worse? On the other hand I can't cope with feeling like this.

I feel like two different people, one at work and one at home. I feel so agitated and want to scream. I also have the overwhelming urge to hit out at something and do some damage to myself.
But the next minute I feel nothing and just cry.

I feel bad writing this here and being so negative. Sorry.

Tonight I feel like lying in a dark room doing nothing.