Flashback.

A great day of seeing friends, and comfortable teaching that turned to absolute shit the moment I spoke with my mother and sister. Luckily I had Rachael to walk me through it but it was still ugly and prolonged and pointless.....I can't help but love them, but they are very judgmental people who are prepared to think the worst of me at all times. There was a time when this was well deserved, but that time is done. I hate the decisions I'm being forced to make, but I have to remind myself that if I had any control over this, this is not the way it would be playing out.