The only photo I took yesterday

I think this might have been the only bit of brightness we saw yesterday and it didn’t last long. In fact it was the first day for a couple of weeks when I didn’t take myself out for a walk.  I did top up the bird feeder that was almost empty and the peanuts are running out, so I need bird food today. I actually saw a Jay in the garden a few days ago when I was talking to Lyn.  I think it might have found the peanuts I spilt on Friday.

It was certainly a quiet day for me, with some unpleasant side effects from my digestive system at times.  I’ve stopped writing things down for the last few days as I was finding it added to my anxiety, but I think I should jot a few things down as my memory is terrible.  

A few positives and on a sad note I heard that one of my badminton playing friends from years ago is now very ill and is probably in the last stages of her life.  She was one of our youngest members and a lovely woman.  Lorraine rang me to let me know and I need to get back to her to arrange a time to get together.  Unfortunately she rang when my brain was out of gear so I need to get back to her.

A short chat with GG around 7 on a night when I functioned better than other recent nights.  I’m finding the evenings pretty grim at the moment as I try to stick it out until 10 when I take my slow release tablet for the night.  Then I wake sometime between 3.00 and 3.30 for a couple of hours and then if I’m lucky (like this morning) I manage an hour maybe an hour and a half before my 7am meds.  5 1/2 hours last night!  As Julie pointed out, I could be helping them with the lambing.