My inner calm

Deserted me today.

Frustration that efforts I made to avoid recruitment delay have been thwarted by errors elsewhere in the system, picked up very late and resulting in, what feels, like 2 steps back.

Irritation that, yet again, I am the only duty manager on site.  Having to give my personal mobile number for emergencies during my 'break' is unacceptable.  Coming back from my break for 'training' that was poorly delivered and where permission changes are needed before I can even attempt what we were being shown just added to my anger.

I have a feeling that lack of sleep and hormones are partially responsible.  The low after a high; unrewarding work post a fabulous weekend..   I have another weekend adventure to look forward to this weekend.   Just need to hold myself together for a few more days.

My 'break' was a quick walk to town and back.  Brights Path always looks fabulous.  Smiths the butchers was my second blip option.  It's closed.  The social media voices say it is closed because " Indian bloke has brought it and put the rent up"   That made me very angry too.  I had to breathe deeply to stop myself responding as the 'chat' that would likely have ensued would have just wound me tighter.

Someone did comment "*bought" .  That being only a small part of what I wanted to say.

Perhaps I should have gone with *bought/new owner/landlord.   It would have , for a millisecond, made me feel better.