Thursday

The calm before the storm. 

Walked a different route to therapy today and noticed these signs on the University building. The words 'walking stick' caught my attention, so stopped and had a proper look. 

Therapy was tough and I lost it near the end. She wouldn't let me leave before she did some grounding skills and made me notice what was happening in my body. I admitted to her that if I could right there and then I would self harm. It took all my energy not to, and to stay seated. 
I stormed home, trying to release some of the negative energy and ended up cutting when I got home.  
I am still feeling really anxious.