Mixed Emotions

Photo shows the stand all ready for tomorrow’s show. I couldn’t believe the pop up as we unpacked it! What on earth does that say? I am struggling not to lose my temper with the marketing  person who designed and ordered this banner without consulting me! And whilst setting up I received emails from them with draft of the ecast that should have gone out two days ago. It was nothing like the draft I’d sent three weeks ago. 

Then came a call! Unbelievably, the phone stayed on. It was a lady from the NHS complaints department to tell me that she had found my complaint email tough to read. I might have mentioned it had been hard to live it! The result is that they are going to perform a full investigation - of every aspect. GP, clinicians, doctors, hospital. I’m really pleased that they think there is a case to answer, but it’s a struggle not to feel guilty, not to feel I should have done something earlier in the whole process. Why didn’t I question the diagnoses that kept changing? And at the end, well nothing will have changed. He’s still gone, and I miss him.

20 weeks.