Thursday

A really s*** psychiatrist appt. I always expect too much. Although asking for what I want doesn't seem too much; I want  a stable life. She won't put me back on lithium and dismissed my thoughts and plans, even though I have acted on one. 
I may have come home and smashed and threw a few things, self harmed and lost the plot. 

Earlier I got answers back about my tattoo and have booked it for Saturday.