Really, it seems I’m living through an exceptional period nowadays. Awakening early in the morning. Long before the alarm and the Churchbells. This inner feeling of having to get ready a lot of things. Need for strengthening relations with some of my friends. Not all. There are some, those who still are the heavy VIP’s in their own mirror, who signal by their inaccessibility, the curtness and onesidedness of their scarce communication, that they can only share their few moments with the priviledged members of their inner circle. So be it in case – like me - you do not belong to the Chosen Ones.
You need a lifetime to find out why for some seemingly friends it turns out, you are not a POI (Person of Interest), but a kind of Nuissance. But really, do not forget that anybody is completely und utterly accepted unconditionally. So, irrespective of ever being called back, answered on your emails. It is their problem. Not yours. It is their tragic incapacity for empathy, love, simple need to share and care about the Other.
Today , wintery again, could be remembered  for at least three remarkable  phoneconversations with friends whom We met seldom during the last decennia. But amazingly your special contact re-establishes itself immediatly in the moment of renewal. And it turns out that both sides express their desire  to renew en deepen their relation to You. You may even discover new aspects or common background, you could have known about. But you had been a bit superficial in the past.
So, even where the chilling winterweather kept me inside I definitely feel gratefull for the on-distance-meetings I could enjoy today. It made clear that spontaneous contacts of real love and friendship, can drop silent for a while. But it is this Eternity of true love and friendship that reinvigors and increases itself. That is the working of what Ludwig Binswanger has called: the Eros Heauton Auxoon, the Selfgrowing or –multiplying of Love.
If you can live your days experiencing that growing energy while doing many things, contacting dear ones and other friends. Then you feel how deeply life is made for you to trancend loss and crisis, so that you can count your blessings,  as Gifts. Not as products of your own making.