Christmas plan

I can’t help it, I need to plan everything in detail, and then tick off as jobs done. I even produce a chart with everything I plan to make so that I can list all the ingredients for the shopping lists. It’s late this year and I need to get on with it as the cake and pudding need making soon.
It’s going to be a difficult Christmas this year, the first without mum.
I don’t really feel that I want to do Christmas but others expect it so I will.