amidst the fog

some days i feel like i live in a fog. this is partially because i do. the sky often looks like this hazy, gray fog. its also because my glasses are incessantly dirty and therefore i am always seeing through a film. or a glass dimly. you know.

this is bad, but its not so bad. doesnt the sky look magnificent? and it brings out its surroundings beautifully id say.

today was good and hard. i am stressed and a little overwhelmed by decisions. it seems there is much at stake and i am the worst decision maker. i am slow at everything. ask my flatmate. i always decide one second too late. and then regret. most days i wish i were more responsible. pros and cons.

id like some clarity. and i like that this photo captures how i feel. i feel im in a foggy haze. i feel this city is moving so fast. it is so alive. it never stops and i find myself moving with it. i find it difficult to slow my self down, calm my thoughts and get a grip on my anxieties, on myself. there is only one place i find stillness. i need to turn there more often. i need clarity. the fog is beautiful, and its certainly exciting. but i seek clarity. i think we must. and so i do.

i must thank steph for this shot. for being the subject, the inspiration, and as it were, the vision. also, it was a lovely night.