a new year

today was the first time i considered that this was a new year. i inaugurated 2009 with a new journal. i started the journal a year ago. today i began afresh. that felt more like a new year than january first did.

i. am. so. excited. for. this. year.

last year was dark. it was full of sorrow, mistakes, regret, pain, and heartache. this year feels like fresh air. it is nearly polar opposite. i feel full of life and wonder and joy. i feel alive. i feel full.

despite the fact that it is winter here in berlin, my heart and soul is in a season of spring. i feel fresh and new. i feel reborn.

i am thankful for redemption. i am thankful for a dark year of sorrow because the taste of this time is sweet on my lips. i am hopeful. i hope this year is full of serving and loving.

mostly serving. i demanded a lot last year. i was moved to tears today when i thought of the house i was blessed to live in last year. my housemates took care of me. they kept me safe. they kept me from drowning. i am deeply indebted to them. i would like to move back home to them and share this joy ive found since leaving. id like to show them im redeemed. i am grateful for snape house.

i am exactly where id like to be. i hope to be wise with my time and energy here.

this is a picture of the neu synagoge. it is around the corner from my flat. all things are being redeemed. even here in germany.