Time

As i get closer and closer to delivery, i can't help but compare my two pregnancies. The first one, i felt at peace, quiet, though I was struggling with a weird complication that made me a lump. This one, I've been sick many times, now enjoying my fourth round of antibiotics, and I've been worried, plagued with indecision. But something, in both pregnancies, is clear: my boys know what they want. They are thriving. So I focus on that.

I've reached 34 weeks. This baby boy will be born in 5 weeks at the latest, more likely in 3. My age means that he's getting an eviction notice sooner than later. So I'm preparing, nesting, relying on family and friends to do all that I can't do, now that contractions accompany my every step, and baby isn't exactly totally ready to come out just yet. And I can't wait to meet him, and have my boys with me, both of them, different and crazy in their own ways. (Sue me, I'm emotional. Might be the hormones!)