Day 6

I've begun to feel a bit like breaking free of this paradise. Sometimes it's a case of be careful what you wish for I think.

The place is gorgeous, luxurious and friendly but I'm not used to feeling so confined to one place and yearn to get in the car and just drive!

So I've found a good book and the lake just beyond the fence and am escaping that way.

I'm still really enjoying the sun and pool and surroundings but am somewhat withdrawn from my fellow retreaters. I don't have much to say and can't be arsed.

I'm certainly learning something about myself. I thought I knew these things but wondered if it was just the lack of an alternative. But now I know that I like my own company more than I thought; I crave the open road; I'm not great in crowds (especially lots of women); I love lazing around; and I'm not a fan of group activities.

I do not feel the need to exercise as much as some of the others here. For me the juicing and some minimal exercise is sufficient for my goal to lose some weight here.

Other than that, I want to enjoy the sun and rest and reading. Boy, do I miss the radio and am delighted I've just managed to tune into some radio 4 podcasts and enjoyed two hours of the ashes and Archers etc. which really lifted my spirits. Unfortunately I can't get it in my pod though.

I chatted sociably with some of the women while most watched a film and had a relatively early night.