Getting back to nature...

To focus on the positive for a second, I am so thankful for all of the support from Noah's family this past week. It's not like me to be so weak, I've always been the strong one, dealing with my own emotions. I've been encouraged to let go, cry, feel, get mad, be sad. That has helped me deal with all of this...one minute at a time.

But underneath it all, I dont know what Im really feeling, Im starting to get a little numb. Its kind of like taking your world and turning it upside down. I've always heard the words, but never knew exactly what it meant. He has no clue how much Im hurting.

So Im going to focus on at least one positive thing a day and blip it...something I appreciate, something that I love...something that will help me get back to me...one day at a time. I'll pick up yoga again...I'll focus on work, I'll go to dinner w/ friends, I'll spent time in nature...just take care of myself.

Going home tomorrow - I really do have a support system waiting for me. I guess in certain situations you really do discover who your true friends are...