Split three ways

Being a mum has many challenges the usual trials and tribulations of housework, school runs, Playschool runs and mum and baby groups not to mention a partner and myself to make time for!
I am a mummy to 3 beautiful children and this little beauty is Carmen she is 2.5 and is a relaxed, content and expressive little girl. Carmen is our middle child like myself and I am so aware how she often blends into the background with very little demands put on me apart from her requests for "mummy I just love you.... Can I have a big cuddle" It's those moments I have pangs of guilt and huge gushes of love for her!
Our oldest son Jacob has some "issues" and is often highly demanding and requires routine, structure and a very close eye kept on him! He is amazing and one smile from him reminds me daily he is adorable and despite his "Jacobisms" he warms many hearts! Then there is the smiley, engaging Baby Sophia 8 months old who requires all the needs of a baby but delivers her winning smiles on que and moves forward in her development and gains personality all the time.
As a parent we have to split ourselves according to need and this is where I find I struggle Jacob needs a lot of input as a parent and that's just the way it is and I would do anything in order to help him succeed in life and move forward in his childhood - then Sophia whose needs are all met by me then somewhere I have Carmen who rarely demands or needs me she has learnt to be self sufficient in so may ways because I think she had to from an early age.... Is it hurting her or hampering her development - no but it really hurts me so today my picture captures
C - courteous
A - angelic
R - radiant
M - musical
E - entertaining
N - nice

My first daughter don't keep blending into the background your were born to shine!