Small and Insignificant

Is how I feel.

The day has been loooooong and it's still not over.

Didn't have a  great nights sleep, woke several times and ended up getting up at around 7.30.
Had a visit at 12.00 from a psych nurse.
Then went out for a walk along the Water of Leith.

As I was walking I was thinking about what has changed since the treatment has started and I realise I feel so small in a  big world. It's like I don't feel I exist to others and am a nobody in a world full of activity. So what is the point? If I wasn't here it would be no big deal.
I feel satisfied that I have worked this out as I was struggling with feeling different but not knowing how.