Ice cream is all I need

College was pretty sweet today, my double chemistry was cancelled, Praise the lord
So I spent the afternoon with David, which was nice. I love him, but now I think he is more of a best friend

I also saw Ryan today, but he was seriously upset about something, but didn't want to tell me, looked like he was on the edge of tears which worries me, I mean I know I haven't known him long, but he really means alot to me.

After getting home at like 4 instead of about 6, I saw my Mammy for a while, before she setted off to her boyfriends for the weekend. I mean its nice to have to house to myself for the weekends, but I really do miss her at times.

After she left I went to see Laura, the pregnant friend, we walked to the community centre to inspect the damage that was done last night. There was a massive fire, and it literally looks a state, that was going to be my Blip for the day but there was workers there and thought it would be a bit disrespectful.

So we walked to the shop and I bought a can of boost and ice cream, hence the Blip of ice cream with my name in I'm honestly addicted to ice cream at the minute. But hey, its delicious.

I stayed at hers for a while, then decided it was time to come home, when I got home, I literally did nothing. And I should either revise or get some sleep as I have work tomorrow.

But instead, I'm staying up talking to Josh who I adore, our conversation is so random, we talk about living in washing machines, and getting married tomorrow.
He started the conversation by linking me to a blender he was "going to buy" and it started off there.
I would say I like him, but then he is like 2 years younger than me. Still a little baby really.

But he's cute, I love him but only as a friend

So I think I shall talk to him for a little while longer, then hit the sack.

I should probably tell you about last night.
I was in a shit mood, again, so I stupidly texted Shaun, the ex who used to hit me.
He replied, and we talked like normal, but I was lying there, in my bed, in tears. I couldn't help it. He then went on to mention he found out about my tongue piercing and how he hates it and how he got with a girl with her nipple pierced and put 'eurgh' on the end of the text, my reply was 'I have both mine done..'
He was not impressed. But quite frankly, I couldn't give a flying fuck, I'm happy the way I am. Obvioulsy I miss him, but I always will, he was my first and my first love. It'll be hard to let go.
I stupidly cut myself last night as well. I regret it now, it was on my arm, like upper arm, and I have work tomorrow, and my top doesn't cover it. Why didn't I think it through?!
But hopefully nobody will say anything, they don't know about my depression but I doubt they would ask.

Thankfully I've been in a mint mood today, felt ill all day but it hasn;t stopped me feeling fine.

Guess I just needed to cry
Exam's start on Monday, I'm going to fail, but I've accepted it now. Going to resit the year, try again.

Guess it will be hard to let go of you, but one day I promise myself, I will