My addiction...

Hangover May Day...

Self-confessed sugar/lucozade addict.

When I was in my first year at University I had to take a good 6 months out to basically sleep. I had full blown glandular fever and it was MEAN. Before then... I had issues with food and drink (mentioned in blips before) but nothing like I do now... For those 6 months I lived on boiled ribenna and 4/5 bottles of lucozade a day and not much else... My stomach has never recovered and I just find It impossible to eat as much as I (used to) want to... Now I just don't have an appetite. I've switched it off in my brain according to my dietician... She is trying her best to fix me but it's gonna be a long process... I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel yet but I know it's there! Who knows one day I may get my appetite back...! I have have forgotten what hunger feels like...

As it was Mayday Madness last night and this morning (I love how I just wrote morning when I got up about 6pm!!) I woke with a hangover from hell the first thing I did was run fall down the last three steps of my ladder from my bed dashing to puke to the fridge to get my lucozade fix..

Every morning at 7.15am on my drive to work I have 1 bottle of lucozade to start my day... I've done this for years... Well... I've had a lot more than 1 bottle a day for years... But this is what I am down too. God knows what it's done/doing to my insides but it's an addiction... If I don't have my lucozade... I just can't function...

Today... I was bad... I needed quite a few!
So this is as exciting as my blip is going to get the inside of a sugar addicts fridge...