Without you I'll be [i]miserable at best[/i]

So today what you see in the image is my nails. I made a man in a tuxedo out of nail varnish but the image was to small to upload it so I had to take a photo of it, and yes, there's me in the corner. ew

Having a shit day, everything's getting to me today, literally everything
My tongue's stopping me from eating so I'm getting no energy from food, I attempted to have soup today but it hurt too much. I also had a shit night's sleep, couldn't get comfy, ended up curled up in a ball in the bottom of my bed.

That's what I want to do now, just curl up in a ball and stay like that for a month or so.
sick of life

I saw David today, and he just annoyed me, I don't even know why. I wish he didn't. I finished at quarter past one today, so it wasn't a bad day at college I guess. Once I finished I went to the performance academy to see everyone, and curled up on the sofa and tried to sleep but it was too noisy. Which sucked.

Me and Rhiannon walked with the Twins and Andrew to the bus, and the twins' bus was like an hour late and neither me or Rhiannon had to get home for a particular time so we just stayed with them, Andrew however had to leave to catch his train.

Once the twins' bus got there, me and Rhe went to get me some bonjela, and when we went we got wolf whistled at by some gorgeous 'Brooootaallllssss'.
So we went on a little mission to see if we could find them again, made me feel 12 again.

But it was fun I guess, something to do.

I was on the bus home and 'Miserable at Best' came on shuffle and I nearly broke down in tears. It reminds me so much of Shaun. I don't even wanna see his name. Prick
But as much as I hate him, I miss him, loads.
But then I don't know if I miss him, or if I miss being in a relationship. Pretty sure it's just the relationship thing. I miss being loved so much. I just want someone to cuddle, but I can't just pick anyone, I need to trust them and love them back and make sure it's right. I kinda just want to meet someone new and to fall crazily in love with them, but I doubt that's gonna happen anytime soon.

So basically, I'm feeling shit about myself today, heads a mess to be honest, I need to sort myself out.

I just want to love again maaaaan

Ciao for now
<3