[b]Guess things could be worse..[/b]

day started really shit tbh,
I woke up late, my bus pass didn't work so my mum had to give me a lift in, which was annoying to say the least as she's annoyed at me now because of the whole could be getting kicked out of college thing, got to college and was stuck with the shittest teacher for 2 hours for psychology.
then I saw David, he makes my day so much better, he just knows how to cheer me up, he gave me his Digits band t-shirt, which is his brothers band but they are pretty good!
so we went out for a tab, me and David, and he just made all my worries go away, just fluttered away

I think I might love him

But then, had to go back to lessons, had maths, hours break then double chemistry. and a chemistry ISA written paper, which I totally forgot about, so I did shit..

I came home, and saw my best friend Laura and my god she's getting big, 30 weeks pregnant now I think, (roughly) 9 weeks leftish,
9 WEEKS TILL IM A GODMOTHER
My gosh I'm excited :D

so yeah, I saw her, then came back home, home alone, again, I usually am tbh, mum and dad split up and my dad kicked me out, so whenever my mum goes to her boyfriends and my sister is at my dad's I'm home alone, which is brilliant for the simple fact I can go for tabs whenever I want, my mum doesn't know I smoke yet.

I never mentioned this boy called Ali yesterday did I?
WELL
he's this boy who I am honestly crazy for, we spoke for ages and got really close but because of my ex I didn't want a relationship, I was too scared. I hate saying that ._.
but yeah, Ali, he's such a nice guy, but like last week he told me he's found someone else, and I can't say anything because I am such a flirt, but its just really got me down today, just kinda sunk in. We still talk and we will always have a "bond" so to speak, but its just hard watching him love her.
I rung him tonight as well, and we spoke just like we usually did, it was so nice to be back to normal with him, I've missed him alot :/

but I guess you can't have everything you want

Also thinking about doing some covers and putting them on YouTube, but Blip readers would be the first to hear, as I'm nervous as to what my friends would think as they are all singers too.

Oh, and my depression got a bit too much for me today, I was in the bath, and I just felt so shit, I held my breath and closed my nose with two fingers, head went under, couldn't do it though, don't honestly know why not though

sorry for the shit photo today, no make up, honestly the first photo with no make-up, I've been hating on myself today, so I couldn't really give a shit or be bothered to put make-up on, no au-natural me, which, beieve me is a big step for me.

Ciao!