Where promises were made.

I spent the weekend at Mums. She is on the mend, although still feeling frail. she hadn't been driving since coming out of hospital, but when she experienced me driving her automatic, she decided she felt well enough to get behind the wheel again. Oh ye of little faith!!!

Had a mare on Saturday night. I got caught out by the 'you judge on your own standards' rule. I though (and still do for all but the very few people) that adults forgive and forget, move on, act in a way which they would be proud of their children acting. Unfortunately, mistakes of judgement I made nearly 2 years ago (whilst very upset) are still being used against me, despite several apologies. 
This following piece helps me, other mantras and practises are available ;)

Spiritual Healing

Undigested experience tends to play in the field of the mind, subtlety influencing our decisions and choices in life. It is extremely difficult to obtain spiritual realization or even peace with so many unresolved emotions in the mind. This tends to limit our ability to meditate and restrict our acceleration of spiritual growth. The first step in healing this process is forgiveness.

Many people have conflict with forgiveness since they feel they are "letting the other person off the hook". Remember that exercise in forgiveness is for you and not them.

How to practice forgiveness.

There are several easy approaches to forgiveness.

Using the power of the intellect realize that every other persons actions are a result of their pain. Realize that it often has nothing to you.
Using the power of the intellect, realize that people are just using the habits and patterns that they learned through their own experience. It may not even be intended to you, but was a poor effort to protect them from pain.

Practice the following forgiveness visualization.
Come sitting in a comfortable posture. Visualize yourself walking into a movie theater. You are the only person walking into the theater. Select a comfortable seat. After a few moments the lights slowly dim and the projector starts. The movie is showing your life. It is going to show all the people who have wronged you and the people that you may have wronged.

As the people come up on the screen that have wronged you, try to use steps one or two and attempt to forgive them. If you come upon someone that you cannot forgive, don't worry about it and just move on.

As you encounter, on your movie screen, people that you may have wronged, ask them to forgive you. If you encounter someone that will not forgive you, don't worry about it and just move on.

After several minutes the movie will come to an end. The lights will slowly come up. Come up from your seat and walk outside. Once outside start to become aware of your body, sitting in your meditation room. Inhale deeply and exhale slowly. Repeat two more times. Slowly open your eyes. Rub your hands and feet together for 30-40 seconds and then relax.