Feeling blue.

I sorted my room out and created space which resulted in this blip as I found some tiny blue lights which I switched on expecting the battery to be flat but it wasnt, so I put them up along a shelf and they were so relaxing to light the room with.

Feeling down as a result of difficulties with my sister. I just wish she would come and spend some time with us when she drives up this way. She goes and spends the day at my sister in law's. She has to drive past us to get there. Our sister in law and ourselves live not too far apart.

I just feel so hurt every time she does this. We hardly ever get to spend time with her little ones and they are growing older all the time. We are missing out. They are missing time with their nan. I know their nan has dementia but she isn't dangerous or inappropriate, never swears and loves children to bits. I make sure whenever anyone calls that everything is clean and totally fresh so that there are no nasty smells to put anyone off coming back again.

So have been struggling a lot with this, this time.