To Emerge

I've always loved winter, the refreshing cold, the snow and in all honesty Christmas, though thats only one month, but i've changed my mind, I love spring, for once in my life I was disappointed when it snowed, it meant that my forest would be muddy and maybe even a tad bit icy.

I guess for once I don't have much to say, I've had to spend all day drying the cats when ever they came inside so we didn't end up with muddy paw prints all around the house and then I finally watched Top Gear, one of my favorite shows, although the thing that made me watch it was because they were in Beijing and I still miss it, although its been a while, one or two months since I last felt that deep tug at my soul that made me want to go home, to a time where i felt safe, before everything happened, in 10th grade where I discovered dance (not that I was good at it) and where I had friends, I was confident, a good student and although whenever Tom was home I did my damn best to avoid him and make him feel like an intruder and that he didn't belong (something which I don't great and am damn proud of) life I think was good. Life is great now, I know it is, I have a better relationship with my brother, he even lets me help him with his essays, I have 4 cats (i've always loved animals), my mom is truly happy and doing something she loves and I have a possible job opportunity, but still... I just thought of it today as I was buying flowers and I saw the branches with what looked like cherry blossoms on them, they mean so much to me, how they'd bloom in spring, from the palest pink to a strong vivid red and it would look like the clouds had descended on the mountains.

Maybe I should say something about the photo, like i've said in an earlier entry I filled the house with spring flowers, including the tulips that are just now starting to form.