Fruit!!

Just a quickie today, hopefully. Tried to take pictures all day but was just too slow with getting my phone out to catch the moment I'd gone "awwww!" at!! So this is what you're getting. My surprise that Ben actually like the "fruit soup" (that's how I described it to him) that he chose to buy to drink, and that he asked for grapes to eat instead of the cakes we'd bought!!! Normally we get to the cafe and it's hot chocolate or a fruit shoot for him, a cup of tea for me, and a slab of chocolate fudge cake between us. Oh and a chocolate owl.

Grapes, and fruit soup. Incredible. (And he finished the smoothie as well!)


Had a lovely day today with Libby and Nat, we went to Tumble Tinies or something, I'm not actually sure what it is called, but on Thursdays they're open for a few hours rather than just one or two. Ben and I got there in time to have a drink and a play outside with Lib and Nat before heading in to the bouncy castle and climbing frames - and because it was then lunchtime, Ben and Nat had the place to themselves pretty much!! I think this may become a regular Thursday occurrence! We headed back to theirs for lunch and a play in the afternoon, before heading out to the supermarket which admittedly with a very tired Ben was a bit of a trial.

The morning wasn't so good though, I had a bit of a crisis of identity - a single throwaway comment, not even aimed at me, was enough to bring my whole self-belief and self-worth crashing down (temporarily, I hasten to add, before you all get worried).

What makes a mum? How does the church (specifically) value mums, how does it reach out and make things accessible for mums? How does it reach single mums? Married mums can at least ask their husbands what's going on, I suppose I have that much going for me! I just felt invisible again this morning, like Steve has found / is finding his place in church life and is growing into it and stepping up to it if you like, but I really just couldn't figure out where I fit.

I guess the point is that I'm a mum. That is exactly where I fit. Being a mum to a small boy and being pregnant with another is who I am at the moment, it's what I do. Just like Steve does the PA and numerous other things. The thing that bothers me is how much mums are valued - but not just that, but how valued mums actually feel.

And what, if anything, I can do about it.