Life brings changes... Changes bring life...

I didn't manage to take any photos that somehow relate to the sort of day I had and how I'm feeling, so here is a nice photo of Master Four Year Old looking rather smug following getting his hair cut this afternoon... Much neater, and less cranky than yesterday's blip.

I probably couldn't have taken any relevant photos if I tried. A lot is going on, and a lot of things are now changing. Not quite ready for these changes, but with support, I know I'll be okay.

It's come time for me to come off my mood stabilisers, anti-depressants, and valium. I decided, if that wasn't enough of a shock to the system, it's also time to quit smoking... Again. And hopefully this time, I won't start again down the track.
While the reasons for these changes are good, and I am excited for this new chapter in my life, the next few weeks will be a bit of a struggle. But, I'm sure it will all be worth it soon enough.

The biggest change will be to The Boyfriend/Non-fiancee. The dynamic of our relationship is about to completely change (in a good way, I promise). Following the recent death of his father, these changes will be such a positive point in his life.

Where there is darkness, there is light if you look.
When one door closes, another opens.
When there is an end, there is also a new beginning.

Despite the hell of the last few weeks, I am feeling quite alive right now. And, at the risk of sounding completely hopeless, I owe it all to the fantastic man I have the pleasure of calling The Boyfriend.

"Never thought the day would come when I'd see
My reflection smiling right back at me.
It's been a while since I've been happy.
Nor sure that I'm ready.
I never planned on letting love in,
Didn't wanna go back there again.
But maybe I could,
Maybe I should
Take a, take a chance on you.
Tonight, I'm lost in the music and lights.
I don't wanna let go..."
~ Alive - Natalie Bassingthwaighte