Something a bit meaningful?

From me? Surely not.

This is symbolic. The grey and faceless walls enveloping this picture are my life a few weeks / months ago. The water in the middle (it it water, I should know I was down there) symbolises tonights date. The yellow steps leading to who knows where are my ultimate goal. To get there I have to negotiate the water.

Like that? I found myself down our custom made Confined Space course today (£20,000 to make and soon to be fully functional) and this photo presented itself as a wonderful opportunity to try and get across my feelings in a way other than my favoured vehicle, words.

Been texting Debs today and we are both as nervous as each other. Sorry to let everyone down but I won't be blipping her today (obviously) and unless things go REALLY well then I won't be able to blip her tomorrow. I'm fairly sure taking shots of a girl on a first date would be off putting for her though, it seems a touch pervy. I'm not pervy.

So not much else is really going on between my ears at the moment. I hypnotised Kirky last night for smoking cessaton and so far he hasn't smoked. I've been flat out at work with all sorts of tasks as the T2G (don't ask) paperwork has to be in tomorrow so it's mad rush time.

Everything seems to be falling into place at the moment (famous last words). Financially I'm levelling out a bit more, I've not had any of the demon green for weeks and I'm actually getting out (a bit) and enjoying myself. Not all the time though, like last night I just mooched around the house wondering what to wear. I'm thinking a black shirt (doesn't show the perspiration of nerves), dark jeans (ditto) and brown trainer shoe thing (dark so if they get splashed at the urinal it won't show up). I've shaved to. It's like christmas just without the fringe members of the family coming round pretending they give a shit.

Thanks to everyone for the comments yesterday, it really is appreciated. I'm only really opening up to blip (and Kirky)(and my Bro) about the events of tonight so it's quite refreshing.

'Be Myself' seems to be a theme. Really? Really girls? Myself? Right wing mildly sarcastic thirty something with a chip on his shoulder and several in his belly? Wannabe twenty one year old struggling to accomodate the giant leaps forward in technology and trying to negotiate the giant leaps back in culture? Really?

Alright. If this goes tits up I'm blaming you.