Roller coaster

I feel like shit tonight. I could be that dog shit on the ground I nearly putted my foot in while I was walking to my work earlier today.

My head is spinning around with heavy thoughts, like pop corn. Right now I don't give a damn what thoughts it is, I just let them flow. It feels like I am walking in chewing gum, things are progressing so damn slow. I live in a vacuum.

My feelings pending, like a roller coster. I lost energy tonight. I lost some feelings. They need to be replaced, by good energy and good emotions. Right now I am ready to give in, give up and just lay down in my bed and stare the ceiling into pieces.

My restlessness created a huge drama between me and my family. I turned into a pit bull, ready to fight. And gosh, I did fight, with all of them. My outside was growling but my inside cried the tears I should have shown.

Well, shit happens. Tomorrow is another day and hopefully I will be in a better shape.

Annelie