Mother's eye again.

Last night I was in bed. I was lying next to my cat overanalyzing, over thinking, not being able to sleep, worrying about the next day as usual. I usually go to sleep fairly early but for some reason I was just awake. Somehow my mind started thinking about the last play we read in college drama lit, "Crimes of the Heart." In the play the daughters talk about how their mother hung herself along with her yellow cat. I was just laying next to my cat thinking, how could someone do that?
Strangely, I get a text from my closest friend since childhood, Elise, just a couple minutes later. Her best friend killed herself.
I didn't know what to do. I was shaking, crying. Just a few weeks ago she told me that she thought I appeared short. I took that as such a compliment. "Tell her thank you!" I said to her.
I was up the majority of the night, trying to think of ways to help her deal with this.
It really makes you think about life when things like this happen.
It makes you realize that you can't complain about every slightest thing. You have to appreciate the slightest things.
It's a very hard thing to understand, and I know that she is in a better place.
I barely knew her but she was beautiful, I always saw her laughing.
So I finally went to sleep. I went in third period and went to do an assembly for the middle school 5th. I was really tired but it went well.
At night we had our first show. Before the show Romano always gives an inspirational speech. Tonight she made us think about the escape we are providing for people. We are offering them the opportunity to sit back, relax and just leave their worries behind them for two hours. Maybe offer them some hope.
I got really emotional. There are so many problems in the world. I guess some people just need to escape.
When hope is gone, an escape brings you hope.
RIP <3