Goodbye memory

I was on this journey to a kingdom where you leave your best thoughts and your unconditional love, it's referred to the kingdom of goodbyes. I arrived to the destination and I spot my family, relatives who've flown from great distances and those close friends that are considered family. I am scared and my insides are shaking in nervous repetitive intervals. My hand is being squeezed tightly from my recently widowed mother. Her sunglasses hide her bloodshot eyes and her swelled up eyelids and her eyelashes soaked with watered down mascara.
There are strangely rectangular cars surrounding the bright white doors to this kingdom. I don't like the air that surrounds me. I know that whatever to come is something that I want to shut my eyes to. There they were, the long tangled flight of wooden stairs. Where they ended was a place I wish I never had to visit. Each step each family members breathing got heavier. With each step my head turned to each person and they all gave me a hesitant grin.
My mother was first up. I waited with everyone around me just in silence. When she returned to us moments later, I didn't like what I saw. Her silent tears were painted everywhere. One after the other went into that room and came out in low spirits. My mother grabbed my hand and bent down to eye level, " are you ready to see daddy?" I can't hold back my tears. I cry hard. I'm scared. My heart throbs. I always thought I would see him again but not like this, not here.
I walk tiny steps to that white lined wooden box. There he layed. He was cold and there was no color to his skin. That was my daddy. With every piece of life sucked from him, not even his flesh could tell a lie. I touched his hand and my tears were falling like a storm of hard rain drops. I was trembling and I just wanted to jump in the box and go wherever he was going. I closed my eyes and I spoke to him. I told him that I loved him and that I know one day we will be together again! As a family!
I had to say goodbye. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do.