so this is the new year

"stop talking about love. every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. it means nothing. what you feel only matters to you. it's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. it's the only thing that counts."

happy new years baby
you owe me
the best gift I will ever ask for
don't call me up, when the snow comes down
its the only thing I want this year
one awkward silence
and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep
staying up, waiting by the phone
and all I want this year is for you to dedicate your last breath to me
before you bury yourself alive

"thinking that you mattered, that's a lie we can both keep..."